Monday, March 17, 2008

Happy minutes after St. Patty's day

Am I going about this the wrong way? I'm mostly treating this blog as a sketch dump when it can be oh so much more. I can list ideas; use it as a literary "sketch" book. I can muse out loud to myself and nothing that I do or write will hold any significance.

I need to learn to juggle better. I want to learn to juggle better. I have reached a plateau where I will not get better at anything unless I actively pursue it at least a little bit every day. There are so few hours in a day after one works full-time. 8 hours are work. 1 hour is lunch. (Ideally) another 8 hours are sleep. That leaves only 7 hours of freedom. FREEDOM to do whatever you want. Now, let's not forget that one needs to eat as well, and that may take another hour or two out assuming you need to prepare, consume, and then clean up your food. So we have five hours in a day?

The only way out of this is to make money by doing something that you love. I need to find a way to fulfill myself in a productive manner for those 8 working hours and bring in enough money to pay for food, rent, and "oh shit my car just broke down again".  Jeremy and I are making a board game. We got a LOT of good progress done on it yesterday, but did nothing today due to his being sickly-feeling and my being tired.

Why am I tired? I went to the gym every day for four days straight last week! I got to the weekend and feel into a sloth-like stupor where I spent most of my time staring at a computer screen doing mindless WoW errands to accumulate gold for myself. In other words, I may have been playing 3D pong or looking at porn for all the good it did me. What a waste of time.

I'm going to draw something now. I have several projects that I "should" be working on right now, but I'm not inspired by them. I don't WANT to, and art cannot be forced. At least not good art. I'll see you again in 15 minutes or so.

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